~perfect situation~

theres a lot thing that i regret in my life.. my life was once full of colourful.. full of friends.. full of excitement and fun.. is now completely upside down.. feels like im losing my frens.. 3 yrs surely change everything..wishing i could back to the time when that wall is not yet develop.. when the time its just only me.. just me.. i miss the old time.. so much..

good day readers.. ive been neglecting this blog quite sometime because of the lack of time for me to write.. furthermore, nothing interesting that happen in mylife that i can share.. ok ok.. there are a few things that happen to me recently.. good and bad and something in between.. for this entry i just wanna share bout my love life these past 25 years of mylife..

ahh.. penat laa nk tulis dalam english.. tapikan english aku cane? ok ke? korang paham x ape yang aku tulis tuh? ke kena guna kamus oxford tebal2 tuh.. yela manala tau ayat2 aku tu da macam tulisan william shakespear plak ke kan.. muahaha.. sebenarnye aku nak cakap pasal ape td ek? ohh love life aku kn..actually tadela menarik pn cite aku ni smpaikan kalo dR Rozmey baca xde nye dia nak wat filem kisah aku ni.. "Kamal: The Untold True Story" pecah panggung x agaknye.. haha..

since zaman sekolah i have no luck when its comes to love.. biase la aku ni kalo org nak jadikan bf kene pikir 8juta kali kot.. dah la x kacak, gemok lak tuh.. selekehh.. sape je la yang suka kan.. so kebanyakkan gadis-gadis melayu yang aku minat time skola dulu merijek aku tanpa belas kasihan.. haha.. dari sekola rendah membawa kepada sekola mnengah xde pon gadis yang tsangkut kt mata kail aku nih.. hahaha.. so zaman sekola aku agak big L on the forehead la kot.. brape ek gadis2 yang aku try ejas time skola.. malas nak kire la.. mostly sume tu kawan2 jugak laa.. xde yang blind date ke hape even zaman tu mirc tersangat lah feymes nye dikalangan muda mudi dulu.. btw, ade sesape lagi ke yang main mirc tuh? nick aku dulu empty-can.. try laa buzz..( ade buzz ke ek.. ke tu YM je.. haha)


berganjak kepada zaman selepas sekolah plak.. aku lpas skola trus msuk matrix.. thun 2003 kalo x silap.. aku kene blaja kt KMPP.. so time kat matrix ni tetiba ade gadis dari sekolah thn lepas msg aku.. so aku pon reply la mcm biase.. ntah cane leh lak tny die cane ngn bf die.. so baru la dpat tau yang diorg da putus/break da rupenye..so pastu aku msuk line la ngn gadis ni.. to my surprise she accepted my proposal.. ok at that time aku nervous okeh.. yela xpenah kapel kot, mane tau nk wtpe sume.. muahaha.. so at the end kitorang x lama pn.. x smp sebulan kot rasenye.. adehh lupa laa plak..sebab ape putus pn ta brape nak ingat laa.. hakhak.. ape2 pn there goes my 1st gf in mylife.. and yg penting kami masih lg best fren smp skang..

lpas matrix kita masuk ke zaman universiti plak..zaman uni plak ade gk la tsangkut ngn gadis2 kat sana.. tapi last2 ada jugak yang tersangkut.. hehe.. so kisah aku ngn dia bermula pd tahun 2006.. segala nya indah masa zaman uni dulu.. yela.. sape x syok masa zaman bechenta dulu kan.. tp bila da masuk alam pkerjaan sume nye da lain.. komitmen katanya.. sehingga satu hari beliau meminta putus dgn alasan penat nak melayan.. yaa aku memang seorang yg suka merajuk dan dipujuk dan dimanjakan.. (statement xleh blah..aahahahaha..) so even da putus aku still wat macam2 ntuk win her back.. ive tried almost anything.. tapi sumenye hanya dipandang sepi.. mmg sedey time ni.. finally reason yang utama die putus ialah sbb aku x stabil.. and die tersuka dgn someone yang hebat pada mata dia.. yela aku ni bkn laa baik sgt pon kn.. mst la dia nk carik yg baik kn.. so kami sudah jarang contact.. jarang msg kol apetah lg.. lagipun dia rimas bila aku keep on texting..bila dah makin jauh im used to the fact that she is not around and the feeling is fading away from me.. im afraid of this and keep on denying it.. but eventually i know that the feeling is fading.. by the time she try to win me back i didnt feels anything.. so we go with seperate ways now.. unlike my previous exgf, i think she cant be fren with me again.. so thats the end of it..


dalam bulan april tahun 2009 aku join satu program ni.. Graduate Employbailty and Managment Scheme atau nama glemer nye GEMS ( aku hangin btol kalo org dok sebut GERMS.. tu kuman lahh wehh..) kat sini aku bekenalan ngan my current and hopefully forever n ever n ever gf.. tapi kami xrapat pon time kt program tuh.. lpas tu baru kami rapat.. dok msg2 and kol kekadang.. masa krisis ngn ex gf sebelum ni, kt dia jgak laa tmpat ngadu.. die layankan je aku.. hehe.. but when its come to love, sgt berbagai2 dugaan yang ada.. its so complicated..until now even we are happy together tp at some point everything got messed up again.. but after that we get happy again..more happy than before.. weird isnt it? hee.. i never felt in love like this before.. die sgt rajin melayankn aku.. cian kt die... hehehe


so thats it.. the comprehensive guide to my love life.. nutting interesting bcoz this is the edit version.. muahaha.. kalau ade produser2 filem ke.. penulis skrip kt luar sana yang berminat ngan cerita nih bleh emailkan contact anda kepada aku.. bleh bg crita full yang uncut nyer version.. muahaha.. fuhh pnjang suda entry nih.. ape2 pn doakan kami bahagia selama2 nye yek.. aminnnn~

akhir kata terimalah lirik lagu ini.. ia juga merupakan lagu tema kami.. hee~ :P

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant, It Makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, Don't you let it pass you by

p/s: cepat2 sape dapat teka ni lagu hape? heee.. sape dapat teka beliau akan dapat nyanyian lagu ni eksklusif dari aku..

korang pernah main game Yu-Gi-Oh x? game die cam lawan kad2 gitu.. penah x main.. ok kalo x penah xpe.. kt dalam tuh ade satu kad yang hebat digelar 'monster reborn'.. so kad ni bila diaktifkan dia bleh menghidupkan semula kad2 monster kita yang dah mati ketika bertarung dengan musuh durjana..canggih bukan?

bersempena dengan cuti sekolah bulan 6 ni yang juga dikenali sebagai bulan kenduri kawen ni aku saje je la nk tulis entry emo pasal kawan2 aku yang lepas sorang-sorang kawen.. tiap2 bulan ader je yang nk kawen..

korang muda lagi laa apasal nk kawen skang.. rilek2 la dulu.. enjoy dulu kehidupan muda mudi nih.. tengok aku rilek jerr.. lepakk laa dulu kann.. hahaha.. (sila baca dengan nada yang iri hati lagi cemburu yang teramat sangat..hahaha) mane korang korek duit nk kawen ni haa.. jual dadah ker.. xbek woo bg anak bini makan duit jual dadahh.. ish ish.. (pergghh da la jeles wat fitnah lagik.. muahahha) lagi satu.. korang da ade bini (or laki) tggungjawab jadi lagi besor wooo...salah wat sikit kene soal kt akhirat tauu..korang x takott ker hah? dah cukup ilmu di dada? tau x susa nk guide partner kite tauuu.. hahh haahhhh.. tau takottt (adeh laaa.. desperate sungguh alasan2 aku nih.. hahaha)

okeh2 udah2 le tuu kondem.. nampak sangat kejelesan aku kt korang2 yang da kawen ni.. kalo aku jadik korang pon mmg x teragak nak kawen nye.. sonokk woo kawen ni.. balik2 keje je ade org da tgu kt umahhh.. x ker syok namanye tuhh.. syok2 yang lain tuh xyah laa aku cakap sbb sume pon dah sedia maklum kan.. ahahaha..

best biler tgk member yang kite tau diorg nye percintaan dari mula smp la ke jinjang pelamin.. sooo shweetttt.. ingat snang ker nak maintain dari kapel sampai akhirnye kawen? bape ramai member2 aku yang da terkandas di pertengahan (kawan je ke? hahaha) tp tu laaa.. sume nye jodoh kan.. kalo dah ditakdirkan jodoh kita si A memang si A laa jodohnye.. xde nye si B akan leh kacau walau camne pon beliau mencuba.. so terima la saje ketentuan Ilahi.. cheewaahhh.. bleh jadi pengacara imam muda la aku.. (nak jd peserta sah2 la kene rijek.. haha)

oklaa.. jom tgk antara kawan2 aku yang da kawenn.. hakhak..

good day.. just feelin want to write something here.. but dunno what actually i want to write.. blank inside and out.. being abandon this blog for a long time.. my limited time have drag me to write sumthin or update this blog.. yeay yeay i know my english is awful.. just write what ever thought that come into my mind n i dont really want to hit the backspace key.. so jst embrace yourself with the crappy and lousy english you ever read anywhere..haha..

just start working at vads for 3 weeks now.. everything pretty good even though i have to work alone and being separated with my friends but i have to hang out as long as i can.. try to find other jobs but it seems so hard to look for one..my shift start at 7am.. goshh can u imagine when most of you still in lalaland, i have to move my ass to wake up as early as 5am.. and i only can sleep at 12 midnite and above.. try to sleep at 10pm but turn out i cannot sleep at all and have to surf the net.. i have to.. not that i want to.. hahaha.. so, sleeping for approx. 5 hrs made my mind got all the negativity.. try to cheer things up by texting with my frens.. and its really cheer me up.. and i can hang on with this job for a little longer.. but what happen if there no more texting from them? can i hang on? i also dunnoooo.. my lunch break is 1030-1130.. and i always have lunch by myself.. how pathetic is that? not saying that i anti-social, but my lunch break is always different with others.. okay2 enough with the complaining.. just glad to have a job while there are still million out there try to find a job.. THANKS ALLAH..

and now i just dont know what to write.. till next time.. have a happy day people..